People love to send me money

This is what I wrote in my journal yesterday in the morning among other things: People love to send me money.

You see, in the time of my winter depression (or what should I call this beneficial state that gives you so much but it seems like a stagnation?) I asked myself. “What do I really really want?”

And I since I started reading, I knew I want to be a writer. But it felt like a dream that is not within reach. I mean, how can you make money writing? Especially, if you don’t want to write what someone else said you should write. Who tha fuck would pay you for sharing what is inside you? You cannot live from this.” But I decided I’m going for it anyway. Because I don’t want to die with a regret that I didn’t even try.

And back then in December, this amazing woman, who is following my journey, sent me 5€ to my paypal through my blog! I had that donation button there for months, but not a single € came through it. I was so fucking excited! It is possible, it is possible! I’m gonna make it happen!

But then I had to go through layers and layers of self doubt, past trauma, disappointments, everything. Lots of breathing, lots of crying, lots of healing and most amazing inner visions.

And now, about a month ago, I decided I’m going all in. That writing comes first. I love painting on the bags and I’m gonna continue doing it, because I freaking love it too! But sharing my inner world through writing is what makes me feel accomplished. When I write a blog post I feel like it was a good day, time well spent. I love this feeling!

If you noticed, I am writing to you much more often now. I write for myself a lot.

But there was a card I received from my Tarot. Stinginess. With a woman, who is holding her jewels for herself.

And it got me. This, my inner world, my writing, my visions, my allegories are my jewels and I have been holding them for myself.

And it made me realize, that I need to start sharing them with you.

And hopefully someday I will be able to pay my bills with this. However, I’m gonna write in any case, because genius zone is a basic need like Miha Pogačnik said.

But it’s getting closer and closer, in fact yesterday when I came from a coffee with an amazing woman (it’s like we have manifested each other), I checked my emails and I saw this:

 

Mojca sent me 10€ through my blog!! People love to send me money! It started happening! I was so grateful! I am still grateful. I will be forever grateful for this, divine yes!

I thanked her in my super excited manner and she said that she knows my birthday is coming and she meant to send me a book, but then she saw that I speak about almost the same things on the blog like they are written in that book… and she decided to send me money. Orgasmic! And I’m gonna read that book anyway! 😀

I am feeling it, yes, that I can live life on my terms and this way giving the best to others and others and Life giving the best to me! Woohoo!

Do you want this too?

Ask yourself: What do I really want?

Write it down.

And then do something about it.

IMPORTANT: My birthday is coming up, this Sunday is the day. Anniversary of me coming out of my mothers womb in the middle of the night. Through my mother to Mother Earth. I love having a birthday, I think you get it 😀 And I want to share my excitement with you by giving you discount on all of my products in my etsy shop. It’s 22% off. Why 22? Because 3 Ptice started when I was 22. And I had no idea back then, what going to the business will mean to me. I had no idea how much joy and how much tears is going to be there. I didn’t have support from my family back then (they were disappointed and worried, because I left the university).  It was often really freaking hard. But here I am, almost 5 years later, knowing that if I could go back in time, I would do it all over again. Because it wasn’t just business. It’s personal and spiritual growth, it’s the real life education, it is meeting the most amazing people, it’s is living a BIG LIFE.

So, 22% off you have if you use a code 22PERCENTOFF (how creative :P). It’s message to naive and enthusiastic 22 years old that still lives in me that yes, you are supported, by this big loving Mother Nature that will always give you exactly what you need for your growth and it will bring you the most amazing people to co-create this new world with. The world in which we can do what we love and get paid for it and live a life full of quality.

Click click to 3 Ptice Etsy shop.

And have the most amazing weekend! I love you and I am super grateful for all of you who ever bought something from me. You made real impact on a real person with buying something that you found beautiful. Thank you for getting what you want!

Anita

Let the woman be whatever she wants to be

She looks like a hooker. Woman should be a lady. Woman should be a warrior. It is about natural beauty. Real woman wears high heels. Feminists don’t wear high heels. She shows her body way too much, something should stay hidden.  She is all covered up. Oh, she is too tight. She could be a 10, if she would change this about her. She wears too much make-up. Oh, she doesn’t wear any make-up, she would be so much prettier with some make-up. She is a bad mum. She is a good mum, but … She is too career driven. She is a bitch. She is a people pleaser. She is too manly, she is too feminine.

Oh my god, can we let the woman already be whatever she wants to be?

Can I let the woman in me already be whatever she wants to be?

Sometimes hooker, sometimes priest. (This song came to my mind)

Sometimes care-giver, sometimes selfish bitch,

sometimes good girl, sometimes bad,

sometimes all natural, sometimes with a lipstick,

sometimes with sneakers, sometimes with heels,

sometimes dramatical, sometimes calming…

And all in between.

Sometimes all together and nothing at the same time.

Whatever tha fuck I want to be. Whatever she wants to be. Whatever they want to be. Whatever you want to be.

It was a few years ago, when I listened to some song from Beyonce on youtube, I don’t remember which song, but there was this comment under it that clicked so much with me. I copied it and send it to my boyfriend. Unfortunately, I don’t know the author, but I think she or he wouldn’t mind if I share it here:

“…you are acting like singing about sex or shaking her ass degrades a woman. Creating boundaries and telling a woman what she should and shouldn’t do with her body or voice is was degrades women, as does slut-shaming, which is what you’re doing. Get off your high horse and respect women and their choices.”

By the way, I bought this book called Pussy last week. It’s life changing. If you are a woman, it’s a must read. Must read. I recommend it so much. My life is already better because of it. Funny thing is, that I wanted this book since September. Then I forgot about it and last week I took a walk and it just came to my mind, that I should check out Amazon, because the kindle version of book will cost me only around 3€ now. And so it was! Magic.You can still get it for $3.65. Click click. 

(This is an affiliate link which means I might receive few cents from Amazon, if you buy it).

srečko molk ring prstan

Srečko Molk wooden ring.

anita puksic 3 Ptice secondhand skirtnaj sosedova krava zivi nahrbtnik

I’m wearing: 3 Ptice backpack and bunny ear scrunchie; secondhand vintage skirt; H&M top (10 years old), Deichmann “allstars”; secondhand sunglasses

anita puksic 3 ptice borl haloze slovenia borl haloze slovenia

I am thinking about painting folloving statements on 3 Ptice tote bags:

“Not all of those who wander are lost.” -Tolkien

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I’ll meet you there.” -Rumi

“Be a light unto yourself.” -Buddha

If any of theses resonates with your soul and you want to preorder, drop me a message to anita.puksic@gmail.com

And feel free to check out what I have in store at 3ptice.etsy.com

Love, Anita

So you are pissed off?

So you are pissed off?

You are finally letting it out.

How wouldn’t you be pissed off?

You have a right to be pissed off.

You have tried everything, but nothing is working. Well, things do work, you have to admit that your life is so much better than it used to be.

They look at you and think of you as a success.

And you are. You achieved so much. You overcame so much. You are a new person.

Yet you still cannot fucking pay the bills.

Why is this keep on happening?

Keep on happening, keep on happening, keep on happening. It’s keep on happening, because it’s keep on happening.

It’s your story.

It’s your story. That you try everything, do everything, get all the possible results, yet still cannot pay the bills and shit.

“It feels like it’s just impossible to change this. It feels like I cannot change this. It feels like it’s a fact that I will always have everything I need to survive, but never enough money, like I will always lack here.”

What is the most hard thing about this situation?

  • I feel fake. Like all my successes and everything I do means nothing, because I cannot back it up with money. And this bothers me, because I want to share my message, yet I feel like people will ask, or even if they won’t ask anything, I don’t feel like I can contribute and really help them, because I didn’t figure it out either. I don’t want to pretend I know shit and that I can help and at the same time asking my grandpa if I can borrow money.
  • I have to ask people for help and I feel ashamed, because I still didn’t figured it out
  • That I’ve tried everything and really did the work and now I feel so stupid, that I still have hope and that I keep on going.

Fake. Ashamed. Stupid.

Naive. Pissed off.

*

What does authentic feel like?

It feels like I can feel whatever I feel and still love myself. It feels good in my body. It feels like I want to stretch and dance and celebrate.

Where have you have been authentic so far?

In my relationships, mostly. With being true to myself and doing what I want to do. With staying in my lane.

What being proud of yourself feels like?

Hm, it feels like it’s integrated in my being. It’s not like being proud and showing off, “Look at me, how important I am”. No, it feels like fun and joy. Playful. Like I know I have all these experiences under my belt already and I just know I can handle what’s next and have fun at it.

Where you already feel proud of yourself?

I am proud of my relationships. I am proud of all the work I did and so happy I have the results.

What are the results?

I feel free in my relationships with people. I feel love. I know I can express myself. I feel seen and heard. I see and hear other people. There’s no passive aggressive fights anymore. I can express my boundaries way better and people respect them. I used to feel lots of guilt, now there is love and compassion. I listen to myself and know way better when to say yes and when to say no.

What else you are proud of?

I am proud of mine persistence. I keep on going, even when it gets tough. I always get back up. And I am even not bitter about it, there is more and more lightness in this. Ha, interesting.

What do you feel like when you think about posting this?

I feel ashamed again. If I would post this it would be like I am attention seeker.

What’s wrong with this?

It’s like I am having it really bad, so that someone starts to feel guilty and then I get what I want. But it feels bitter.

Would you like this to be easier?

Fuck yes.

Would you like to have it really good, so that others naturally feel good around you and you get what I want with ease, because you also give what others want and you don’t even have to think much about this, even though you can, if you want to, but it’s just natural to you that you are who you are, you do what you do and this way you give your best and you receive the best in return?

Well fuck yes 😀

You got it. Now, can you post this knowing that you are going to help somebody with it? Knowing that you are not only one in the world who feels human emotions? There’s 7 milliards of people like you who know what all of these emotions feel like.

Well, I can post it…

What does the genius zone feel like?

It feels like I can live the life the way I want it to and everything just falls into place, because I put myself and my art first.

It feels like I have this board under my feet and I can fly through the air with it and do things with ease and fun and super fast even, if I want to. It’s like I have superpowers.

You do.

 

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And if you have enough bags but want to give something bag, I mean back, to me, because I am so awesome and I share my gifts and talents with you, you can share this post with others. And you can also buy me a coffee or bananas for smoothies.  Click here to donate.

#lifegoals

So. I realised this two days ago. How it is with your life goals.

It’s like if you want to go to Radovljica (a town in Slovenia that I want to visit), you don’t freak out that you might never get there.

You don’t say “I’m not worthy of going there.”

You don’t say “It’s not possible to go there.”

You don’t say “It’s possible for other people, better people, but it’s not possible for me to get there.”

You don’t freak out, because you are not there yet.

You are not afraid, that Radovljica will get erased from the planet and you might never experience it.

You don’t think you are too young or too old.

You are not afraid of people saying “Who the hell you think you are wanting to go there?!”

You are not afraid of telling people you want to go there.

You are not ashamed that you want this…

You don’t say, “But there are other people, who are already there, I should go somewhere else.”

If you really want to go there, you decide when you will go.

You decide if you want to go alone or take someone with you.

You decide if you want to go there by the fastest road that will take you there or if you want to stop on the way and see some other places as well.

If you really want to go to Radovljica and it’s your priority, you are not going to put it off for years and years and go to every other place instead to Radovljica.

You are going to ask yourself. When, how, with whom, what do I need to take with me?

And if you need to, you will fix your car first, make a sandwich for along the way, fill up a tank and you are ready to go.

And you know you can use gps or ask for directions along the way.

And you know, that you can enjoy your way there, sing songs in the car and wear your favourite sunglasses.

You can get this handpainted 3 Ptice tote bag at 3ptice.etsy.com.

Bring into the fruition what you promised to yourself

Bellow is a note from my phone that I wrote on 11th of July, 2016.

I just meant to write down one sentence, but hen it started flowing out of me or maybe through me. It still hits me everytime I read it. It was very intimate to me, but now I decide to share it.

Enjoy.

 

Give and bring into the fruition what you promised to yourself.

But don’t make a too big deal out of it.

Just be that person. This is who you are if you aspire to it.

Give it a try and feel the difference.

And then you will stop feeling the difference and you will aspire to something else. Or to upleveling of what you have already accomplished.

It’s just a cycle of life.

And you are so freaking good at it.

You are awesome at choosing your reality.

You can decide how you feel about people, about situations.

And know that everybody has their own trip, of what is a reality, going on in their heads.

Now that you know, you choose.

Yes, there are always contradictions, a contrast that gives you clarity about who you strive to be. And that’s who you are.

Give yourself permission to change into who you wanna be. And give same to everyone else. You will do the last naturally once you do the first.

If they aren’t okay with your change?

Then ask yourself, which life are you living.

Don’t count on others to change first, so that you could.

Just change into who you now choose to be.

Give yourself the freedom to be who you wanna be.

You are a fantastic chooser.

Whole heaven cheers on you.

And that’s the heaven you can choose on Earth.

That gorgeous planet you live on.

Hmm, maybe it’s this message from Gaia, the Mother. 🙆

tote bag handpainted quote tote etsy entrepreneur work tote

P.S.: To start the process, do what you can, with what you have, where you are. As Theodor Roosevelt put it. You can use this handpainted 3 Ptice tote bag as a reminder. Click here to order.


 

Aha moment: Why do you want to buy my things?

I just had an aha moment that I have to share! I was journaling on the questions from mindset training in the mastermind I’m in. (It’s The High Vibe Mastermind from Kat Loterzo, if you are wondering, it’s really fricking high vibe).
Why is this (freedom -> being at the right place, at the right time, doing the thing I feel is right for me at the moment) important to you was the question and my answer was because I want to live life on my terms.
And then came to me fear around calling in my ideal customers (I felt blocked around this lately), fear of manipulating them. I talked about this before on my blog, yet they were more layers to it. It’s me being aware that I have power and I don’t want to use it in a way that could harm others or go against their free will). Why do I have this fear? I remember doing bad thins to others as a kid, sometimes on purpose or even now when I am a grown-up kid, but now not on purpose, but thinking that I do good.

Anyway.
Then it clicked.
By calling in my ideal customers I’m doing something FOR them, not to them. It is in perfect alignment.
And then I asked myself: Why do my ideal customers want to buy my things?
Because they feel special wearing my things.
Why do they want to feel special?
Because they KNOW they are special and they want their choices of accessories and clothes to reflect that. Omg, I’m actually doing them a favor selling my things. Their soul reflects itself through wearing my products.
This way we both live life on our terms.

This was huge for me now! Because I always felt like this feeling special is some ego thing. But is actually soul thing! Because my soul also sings when I buy something that is like “waaa, this is so me!” And then I enjoy the thing for a long long time and feel grateful for it. Gosh, something is shifting in me!

Gosh, something is shifting in me!

And I have so many memories of people seeing parts of themselves in my products, people even crying sometimes, because something on my products hit their soul in a good way, and their eyes shining and them laughing out of pure joy! And I have so many screenshots of amazing feedbacks from my customers!

And so many sensitive people telling me that there is something special in my products, that there is some special vibe… And that’s no wonder, even though it’s wonderful because I put on my products what resonates with me, what hits my soul! And I make them when I’m feeling it! Aaaah! Clicking, clicking, clicking. This year is so amazing so far, so many things are connecting for me!

And it’s so simple it almost makes me feel stupid for not realising this sooner or actually, I forgot about it. Because sometimes I am living in this state and everything flows then.

So happy, I have it written down now.

And big thank you for you, who are reading this, I really appreciate it! And big thanks to my customers, who are getting my products, on a soul level and buying them on a physical level, we are creating something so beautiful together! I so much love this!

 

Aaaah, so grateful right now!

And if you want to check out my products, feel free to do so and if you want to buy them, feel worthy of having them, because you are! <3 <3 <3

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Life, lately

Hello, my dear People. As I told before, with the spring came back my joy for life. Now I would like to share some pieces of my life with you. This joy of sharing also came back. In the winter time, I felt like I have nothing valuable to say. Now I know again, that whatever I say, might bring some value to somebody, even if it’s a just a tiny little bit of it. And even if it’s not bringing value to somebody else, it’s still bringing value to me, because I express myself. Yeeha! And then I feel joy and that brings value to everybody because there’s more joy in the world, even if it’s just a tiny little bit.

It goes the same with love. This is me and Jure. On the first of March, we celebrated 10 years of being together. Oh, my! 😀 We are in love again. You see, when you are together for so long, you sometimes fall out of love. You focus on other things, you have your own worries, you sometimes feel like shit and blame your partner for it. You sometimes get afraid of sharing your needs with your partner, because you shared them before and they weren’t met… You might start to think, what if this, isn’t it? What if is there someone out there who would suit you better? And you start to question and doubt and question and doubt. At least that was my case. And what I realised is, that when I feel this way, the Universe brings me more reasons to question and doubt. And when I decided, that I’m willing to go all in in this relationship, express my needs, listen to his, when I decided to see all the love he is already giving me and receive it, I fell in love with him again. (I’m kissing my own hand now, hehe, feeling love.). It’s almost overwhelming at times when I look at him and I see pure Beauty, a miracle of nature…”When did you become so beautiful?” I ask. And I know he has always been, I just didn’t see it. But instead of regret, I choose to be grateful I see it again.

So what did we do for our anniversary? We went for kebab (veggie version for me), laughed hard while watching a few episodes of New Girl, drank a bottle of red wine and had deep shit conversations for hours. It was beautiful.

Even though I was irritated at some point. He wanted to watch Dave Chappele, I wanted to watch a good movie. He doesn’t like movies, they are too long for him, I don’t always like to watch Dave Chappele, because there’s no subtitles and he is talking fast and so sometimes I don’t get a joke because I don’t properly understand what he says. I feel stupid then, when I’m asking Jure what he said, and another joke goes by while he is explaining it to me. Grrr, I don’t want that for our 10th anniversary.

But I also realised there was another thing that made me upset. You see, I had this picture in my mind that when that big number comes, we’re gonna be financially well of already and that we will go for a trip somewhere for at least two days or something. And then we didn’t even go to the restaurant, we were eating a kebab in our car!

But after that everything was perfect again as he was willing to watch New Girl 😀

And we have a story.

Oh, what I wanted to tell at the beginning of this paragraph is, that sometimes when we were hugging on the couch, doing nothing else, I would feel like we should be doing something more important. Like some big revolution, you know, something to make the world the better place! And this year it hit me again (some insights come back again and again, in cycles), damn, we are doing something for the world this way! If we sit on the couch and feel love, there is more love in the world at that very moment. That’s wonderful!

And you don’t even need to be in a relationship for this. Everytime you give yourself love and you are kind to yourself instead of being angry at yourself for whatever reason, you are doing something good for the world.

It seems a small thing, but as we say in sLOVEnian, “Zrno na zrno pogača, kamen na kamen palača” which could be translated to “Grain on a grain makes the bread, stone on a stone makes the palace.”

And as Tina said: “Love IS revolution”. I’m gonna put that on 3 Ptice tote bags.

eco friendly fashion package

Next: I’m doing little upgrades for 3 Ptice. Like these new stickers for the packages. Don’t worry, I have them in English too 😛 The name on the package is Eva Oeser. A beautiful girl who bought my organic cotton t-shirt and gave me a hug. This is something so beautiful to me, so magical. When there’s on both sides a big “thank you”. It makes me wanna say thank you over and over again.

This is my grandfather. One of the most important people in my life. He doesn’t hear well, yet he is sometimes the only who hears me. You see that sparkle in his eyes? This is pure love, this is pure beauty. People often feel like they should give me advice about life or about business. Not him. He sees me as competent and is proud of me. I need to look at myself through his eyes more often, hehe. I’m crying gratitude tears right now. He loves when I take pictures of him. We both hope I’m gonna take pictures of him for many years to come. 💚💙💛 Why I share this here on my business page? Because I often paid for shipping my products or bought a material with tips he gave me after doing little things for him. Like taking care of his bills or taking him to the doctor. And so he is an important part of my business journey. 💕 #3ptice #g #grandpa #behindthescenes

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My grandfather <3. One of the most loving people in my life. It seems like dementia started chasing after him. He did some stupid things lately like burned his hearing aid, screwed up the furnace and more. And his speaking changed from our dialect to archaic form of correct Slovenian, which is kinda funny.

Us together.

Yesterday we went to doctor’s office to clear his ears and we also got referrals for neurologist and psychiatrist, so I hope seeing these doctors will help to slow dementia down. Please, everybody who is reading this, keep your brains active by reading a lot, learn something new (learning languages is especially great for your brain), whatever necessary. If you are over fifty, do it even more. Exercise, meet new people, read books about philosophy… Changes in brains can occur 10 or 20 years before we can recognise dementia. Be active. Please.

I went to the cinema yesterday. I asked a bunch of my girlfriends if they wanna go with me but they couldn’t or weren’t interested. So I went alone, of course. As I was waiting for the ticket, there was another woman in front of me who came alone. One head smaller than me and almost fifty years older. There was still a half an hour left till the beginning of the movie and we both headed to the coffee house nearby. Every table was full, only the couch by the bar counter was still empty. I sat down and she sat on the green chair beside the couch. We started talking. She is a regular cinema visitor. She lives in the house with her husband (almost 50 years together), works around the house and in the garden every day, watches over her granddaughters, and besides that, she is expanding her social circle at knitting club at the university of the 3rd age, where she also attends class with exercises for brain. Her name is Justika. Oh, and she is doing yoga first thing in the morning and regularly visiting group exercise. Be like Justika.

 

After the doctor’s office, we went to the cemetery. Walking from one grave to another. It was like a trip through his memories. I couldn’t see the pictures in his mind, but I could see his expressions. He touched every grave marker with a name of a person he knew and there was no sorrow on his face, there were joy and a big smile and happy eyes like he was meeting old friends.

When we were driving back home, he was showing at the houses saying, “Here lives a kind woman! That man is a kind man! No, that woman isn’t kind. Ohh, good human lives there.”

You see, that’s what matters. I’m not saying we have to always be kind, we are only humans after all. Sometimes we have to say no, be assertive, etc. But still, sometimes all it takes is a smile.

A smile can go a long way even if we don’t know it. My friend works as a waiter and he is a very aware person. Yet he said once that his kindness sometimes doesn’t have an impact. I ensured him it does!

When I and Jure go for the groceries and come out of the store, I often say “I love this cashier, this one is my favourite!” He says I say this for every cashier, but it’s not true. Some really stand out! Some have a sparkle in their eyes. And this sparkle makes me sparkle too! I remember the day when I came to the shop irritated and hungry as fuck. And there was that cashier that since became my favourite. It was just “Good evening”, but the way she said it… Like she really meant it. I felt seen. I went out of the store happy.

So, it has an impact. We might not always know it does, yet it does anyway.

vegan lunch pasta with smoked tofu

Delicious pasta with smoked tofu.

Another thing. I’ve been vegetarian for a half of my life and lately, I am switching to vegan. I only cook vegan meals now. There was one exception past weekend. Jure brought cheese I always loved. The one from Croatian Pag Island. So I made sure it was gone asap so I could go back to vegan, haha. It seems like he is doing it on purpose. Also bringing sweets with milk chocolate more often now. Grrr. I called him out on this. “I love when you bring me chocolate, but please, bring me a dark one next time.” So, these are my setbacks. But still, I decided to be kind to myself in this process and not complicating it too much for my environment for now.

Speaking of environment, I’m cutting the grapes around the house I live in now. And working in the garden. Damn, this is fun. I always knew I’m gonna have a house with a garden, but I didn’t imagine this so soon. I mean, I thought I’m gonna enjoy working outside when I’m old. Either I’m old already or I just surprised myself in a positive way. I love how quickly you see you did something, but at the same time, you know you have to wait for the results. It’s such a metaphor for business.

Business? Yep! Coffee, tea, smoothies. I am happy that I work from home again. And that I have a dishwasher.

I enjoy working again. It’s fun! I feel lucky. Proud of myself. Grateful for my customers. Full of ideas. Oh my god, it’s just the best.

Feeling this word game of mine again: “Svet je svet”. Which means “The world is sacred.” Ah! <3

svet je svet

Two days ago I was playing a bit with taking pictures. I always felt like I’m bad at photography. But that day I was really enjoying it and pics came out pretty well! Feeling motivated now. It’s possible for me to take better pictures!

On this one is the hand painted bag of mine, a pack of fertilizer from Slovenian brand Organics Nutrients and that bag with apples and bananas is from another Slovenian eco-friendly brand called Re.Vrečka. You can find it on Etsy as well! Re.Vrečka bags are for vegetables and fruits you buy in the shop and put them in a plastic bag otherwise. Not anymore. These bags are recycled from used curtains and I encourage you to buy a few. You can put price stickers on them. And at the cashier, you put everything in 3 Ptice canvas tote. Sounds like a plan, don’t you think?

Well 3 Ptice and Re.Vrečka are also planning something for you. Stay tuned.

How you make your money is much more important than how you make it. -Gary Vaynerchuck

Another one I plan to write on a tote bag. You see, I sometimes feel like a loser, because I’m not financially where I want to be yet. Because I still have debt. And even though I paid off around 2000€ of debt in 2016 while having a hella good time and even traveling a bit, I acquired another 1000 and something during last few months when I was in hibernation. But I decided that instead of beating myself up for letting that hibernation thing happen to me again, I’m going to look at this from a different perspective.

I’m gonna be grateful I recharged my batteries and my spirit. I’m gonna be grateful for all the things I figured out. I’m gonna be grateful for all the changes I made because I was sick of everything (I already see those changes were good for me). I’m gonna be grateful for all the research I’ve done. I’m gonna be grateful for all the tears I’ve cried because I made space for joy. I’m gonna be grateful for all the social anxiety and lack of sense I felt because this way I can understand others who are also going through this. And because I helped myself out of it, I can maybe inspire somebody else too, that is possible. That is possible for overthinkers and introverts and depressed people to start loving themselves and the world again. If I can go from being like Adam in Only Lovers Left Alive back to Eve, then you can too.

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So, what I am really proud of is that almost every cent I ever made was made doing the things I believe in. At the beginning of the last year, I was receiving social support. It’s for those who are active job seekers. But I didn’t want a job. And I could not make myself to write job applications just for a sake of social support. Some people thought my behavior is stupid, leaving money on the table, because of my principles. But my business started improving because I followed my principles.

Well, I don’t always follow my principles. Sometimes I listen too much to other people. Sometimes I get scared that I’m not doing it right. Sometimes I compare myself too much to others. Sometimes I want people to like me and I say yes to something that feels like no. Sometimes I don’t dare to show myself because I fear criticism. Sometimes I don’t dare to show myself because I’m afraid that I’m gonna change my mind later and gonna feel like a hypocrite. Sometimes I let in things people say about me or the way I run things that I shouldn’t let in. But I try my best. And thank god, as the spring comes after the winter, I for sure come back to myself sooner or later.

And as I started coming back to me, my customers also started coming back to me again. What a joy, what a gratitude!

You see, I was so scared, I felt a lot of shame, because some people said to me, that prices of my products are too big. I know it was in an attempt to help me, at least from their perspective. They said I’m not known enough to have such prices. (Gosh, I feel scared while writing this). But known or not, I deserve to live well from doing what I love, I said. Because when I do what I love and I am able to live from doing it, there’s more love in this world. There’s more abundance in this world as well.

But I got scared again. What if I am manipulating people? They are buying things they probably don’t need. And they could get similar stuff cheaper elsewhere. What if I am doing something bad taking money from them? I went tripping through my subconscious with this to find a solution.

And it hit me. I’m not manipulating. That would mean my customers are stupid. And I know they are not. Those I got a chance to know better are really smart and besides that loving and caring people. (Just yesterday I saw Katarina in cinema, a girl that bought a t-shirt two days ago from me. The movie we were watching was “Suffragette”. It made me incredibly happy that people like her are buying from me. People who dare to think and who dare to feel.)

So I’m not manipulating (I hope!).

We are co-creating.

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Thank you for your trust, thank you for your (hard or easy earned) money and thank you for your precious time for reading this.

But you love books and deep shit conversations anyway, don’t you? 😛

book lover tote bag This handpainted tote bag is waiting for you in my Etsy shop.

Love, Anita

Check this out: Ecofriendly drawstring backpacks.

You see, spring is in the town and I am full of motivation and dedication to my work again. I’m back to believing that what I do is good and important for the world. Is eco-friendly fashion important for the world? Hell yes! You see, we as humans won’t just stop consuming stuff. I mean, it’s amazing to get yourself something new, we all agree on that. But if we want to reverse climate, we should be as conscious as possible around what we buy.

And here I come in the game! I made eco-friendly drawstring backpacks for you guys! Made of secondhand fabric scraps. So that you can feel good about yourself when you treat yourself with something new. No guilt. Because you are buying eco-friendly you are giving the vote for the world in which we don’t need to harm this gorgeous planet for the sake of fashion.

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This is me calmly sewing. 😀

ecofriendly backpack

▲ Backpack number 1: goldish brown + dark green

backpack ecofriendly

▲Backpack number. 2: green + goldish brown

drawstring backpack ecofriendly

▲Backpack number 3: goldish brown + brown

drawstring bacpack

▲ Backpack number 4: turquoise blue + goldish brown

backpack ecofriendly etsy

▲ Backpack number 5: goldish brown + olive green.

ecofriendly drawstring backpack

This is me after that mini photoshoot.

While I was sewing these backpacks an idea came to my mind. What if I offer them for a lower price upfront? To my email list first, instagram and facebook second. And I upload to Etsy what doesn’t get sold in the preorder time later? With a bigger price of course, because uploading on Etsy takes a lot of time that I could spend making new products + there are extra fees to pay. So this is like a reverse sale, haha. And it’s a win-win because you save money and I save time.

What do you think about this business model? If you like it, make sure to sign-up to my email list so that you will be the first to know what new eco-friendly products I created. 😉 Click here to sign up.

You wanna know how much these backpacks cost? They are just 22€ till this Friday (3rd of March). Later they will be 32€ or even more.

They are very limited edition. I can make one or two extra for each color combination and then I run out of the fabric. It’s all secondhand so I can’t get more of the same fabric. How cool is that? You get a guilt-free purchase, you save money and there will be three people the most on this planet who are having it. Take that Zara.

Oh, the string in the backpacks is new. It’s ultra durable but unfortunately isn’t that much eco-friendly. I’m being honest here. But the more I sell, the closer I am to hemp strings, yay!

If you wanna order now, send me a message at anita.puksic@gmail.com asap.

And if you don’t want/need a new backpack, share this with your friends who care about the planet we live on. Will you? Thanks, you are the best! <3

My car got broken. And I’m happy.

I’m back to regular blogging. This time for real! I was totally inspired yesterday, when I was listening the interview that Marie Forleo had with Seth Godin. And today I checked out his blog after a very long time and I was like “I can do this too!”. And even got an inspiration for a new slogan for my tote bag.

I’m really great right now. The last month wasn’t really good in terms of sales, thanks to my travelling, not being enough present on social media, period and  winter blues.

 

But, I’m back on track.

I wanna share with you what happened today. My car didn’t want to turn on. It’s too cold already and I need to change some parts. Normally, this would make me worried, but not today. The sun was shining, I was listening to some good old school rap on Marantz stereo from my landlord, I already prepared the stove for the evening, so that when I come home from my studio, I just light it up. So I decided not to worry.

And I called my boyfriend, if he can come and pick me up, because I also had to go and buy blank tote bags, which is out of the town. Otherwise I would hitchhike. I was super happy that he was ready to come and came in a good mood. Isn’t that beautiful, that I can count on him? It is. And in the meantime I cleaned my dishes.

So, we were driving and I said: “You know what? I’m really happy that my car is broken.”

“Why?”

“Because once, I will have a super car that will heat itself up even before I’m in it, with warm seats and everything… And I’m gonna appreciate  it so much more, thanks to having this experience.”

And later on I figured out I can call my uncle and get this parts for the car cheaper. Even better!

When Jure (name of my guy) dropped me out in the town I went to tobacco shop, with my blank tote bags under the arm. And the lady that works there started asking me about them and what are the prices and what I paint on them. And she ordered one and gave me money in advance straight there!

This made me so happy. It was like a miracle! And I even thought about taking the bags to my studio, before I go to tobacco shop. But then I was like, who cares, I already look like a clown with purple pants, green shirt and red coat and I feel good anyway. A bunch of tote bags under my arm cannot make me look worse 😀

A photo posted by 3 Ptice (@3ptice) on

The moral of the story is, if you refuse to feel bad and search for good in every situation, things will get better.

The moral of this story could also be, go and buy from local craft makers, artists, go and buy from people on etsy and other handmade shops, because you make us so happy and we make you happy with top shit and original products that make the best gifts! You pay our bills, you buy our food, you repair our cars and we are sending you love before we fall asleep because we are so happy, that you enjoy our products and that we can live from making them.

Kisses,

Anita

P.S.: Get the most thoughtful gifts this season on 3ptice.etsy.com 😉

 

“Overwhelmingly busy is a much better state to be in than overwhelmingly bored.” – father of Leandra Medine (from Portrait of a #GirlBoss)

So, I’m having such busy months it’s crazy in a good way. Sometimes in a bad way, but sooner or later from bad comes good and even better than it was before. So many things happened, so many biz and personal successes, that I don’t even know where to start. But on the other hand, I focus on what’s yet to come. And these things are even more amazing (hope so!).

I don’t know, if I had a writer’s block in the last few months or it was just all the things that were happening and I couldn’t just pick something to write about, because then I would had to leave other, equally important things out… And also, on the other hand I was a bit scared and under pressure. I realised that people are actually reading my blog and they find themselves in my words, so I felt that if I’m going to write I should write something of value to readers. And than I didn’t feel that my shit is good enough to be of value to somebody. + lack of time, and there we are… The thing I love so much, writing and sharing it, doesn’t get much attention from me. And this blog, that gave me so freaking much in terms of people and opportunities, looks abandoned.

Am I gonna change that, will I place it on the top of my priorities or will I just make a good resolution and then leave it hanging in the air for few months again?

Will see. I give myself a right to change my mind.

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In the morning. Btw, follow me on the snapchat and instagram, if you feel like it – anitapuksic is my username.

However. Currently, for a few weeks, I’m working for Art Stays Festival in Ptuj, Slovenia. It’s a festival of contemporary art and it’s pretty huge thing to be in such a small town. I really like to work there, even though I’m constantly running around and my feet hurt, but I gain so much experience and I learn so much and I meet new people everyday… So it’s worth it. And the team is really great, I like all the people I work with, and it’s nice when organisers acknowledge the effort of the team and each member. + we are doing it for the art!

I also made designs for the festival tote bags this year. And I print them as well. I’m really happy, that they are selling well, that people feel them. Sorry, I couldn’t manage to take a picture of them yet, shame on me. As soon as I stop writing I should go to screen printing, to make more bags, yeeha.

And another thing I have to do today is prepare facebook event for art/secondhand market we are organising in Fürstova hiša this Saturday. And go put the posters on, give out flyers and share the thing on facebook, write to people to share it…

And then my dear brand, 3 Ptice. Gotta get my focus back on them. Get back to regular updates, make some new stuff, decide to which art markets/festivals I’m going in August…

A picture from the exhibition of my bags in Kavarna Bodi, Ptuj, Slovenia.

There’s gonna be so much work and I’m trying my best to get myself fucking organised. I’ve done so much in this area in the past few years, I’m getting better and better at it, yet still is there so much room for the improvement… Because I also need time for myself, for my guy, for friends and family.

It’s funny how it all blends together… When I paint the bags I also have time for myself at the same time, to listen to some podcasts or meditations, affirmations and so on. Books that I read, they are not just to relax, I get lessons for business out of them. Or I get to love myself again when I feel understood by the fictional character and then I go about my day with a fresh new energy, which brings wonderful people my way, new connections, more business… I cannot draw the real line between people I work with on the projects and friends and family. Sometimes those people feel like a family, because besides working together, we also share how we feel and we are there for each other when needed. Work is getting mixed with emotions I feel about myself, about people, about world, there are all this words in my head, I’m making up philosophies and destroying them, wanting to cry because of the pressure and after few hours feeling like I’m the luckiest person alive, because I do spend my time, which means my life, on the things I believe in.

People who don’t really get my type of work, sometimes ask me, if it’s worth it financially… And sometimes I ask myself the same… when those bills are waiting to get paid, when I need new tyres for my car, when I still don’t live on my own (this is my dream for as long as I can remember)… Yet I made such progress here as well. I have all the materials I need (almost), when I buy the material, I can buy more of it at the same time, I have everything I need to make money, there is enough opportunities and people out there… I paid of so much of my debt… I get in a fucking action way faster. Back in the times I could be rolling in a self pity for a whole day and get maybe one thing done… Now I get shitloads done and here and there roll in a self pity a little, to see the other side of a stick again – how fucking blessed I am to be me. To live in this miraculous body in the most beautiful planet, working and connecting with people I appreciate and seeing sky full of stars when the night comes.

Aaah!

But I also wants some holidays. I think the first thing is gonna be one festival… which is actually gonna be part work, part vacation.. Then my boyfriend has a final exam and I think after this is a perfect time to go to the seaside… And I also want some mountains with waterfalls and I wanna go to Florence…

Okay, hustle time!

tote bag entrepreneur
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