This is what I wrote in my journal yesterday in the morning among other things: People love to send me money.
You see, in the time of my winter depression (or what should I call this beneficial state that gives you so much but it seems like a stagnation?) I asked myself. “What do I really really want?”
And I since I started reading, I knew I want to be a writer. But it felt like a dream that is not within reach. I mean, how can you make money writing? Especially, if you don’t want to write what someone else said you should write. Who tha fuck would pay you for sharing what is inside you? You cannot live from this.” But I decided I’m going for it anyway. Because I don’t want to die with a regret that I didn’t even try.
And back then in December, this amazing woman, who is following my journey, sent me 5€ to my paypal through my blog! I had that donation button there for months, but not a single € came through it. I was so fucking excited! It is possible, it is possible! I’m gonna make it happen!
But then I had to go through layers and layers of self doubt, past trauma, disappointments, everything. Lots of breathing, lots of crying, lots of healing and most amazing inner visions.
And now, about a month ago, I decided I’m going all in. That writing comes first. I love painting on the bags and I’m gonna continue doing it, because I freaking love it too! But sharing my inner world through writing is what makes me feel accomplished. When I write a blog post I feel like it was a good day, time well spent. I love this feeling!
If you noticed, I am writing to you much more often now. I write for myself a lot.
But there was a card I received from my Tarot. Stinginess. With a woman, who is holding her jewels for herself.
And it got me. This, my inner world, my writing, my visions, my allegories are my jewels and I have been holding them for myself.
And it made me realize, that I need to start sharing them with you.
And hopefully someday I will be able to pay my bills with this. However, I’m gonna write in any case, because genius zone is a basic need like Miha Pogačnik said.
But it’s getting closer and closer, in fact yesterday when I came from a coffee with an amazing woman (it’s like we have manifested each other), I checked my emails and I saw this:
Mojca sent me 10€ through my blog!! People love to send me money! It started happening! I was so grateful! I am still grateful. I will be forever grateful for this, divine yes!
I thanked her in my super excited manner and she said that she knows my birthday is coming and she meant to send me a book, but then she saw that I speak about almost the same things on the blog like they are written in that book… and she decided to send me money. Orgasmic! And I’m gonna read that book anyway! 😀
I am feeling it, yes, that I can live life on my terms and this way giving the best to others and others and Life giving the best to me! Woohoo!
Do you want this too?
Ask yourself: What do I really want?
Write it down.
And then do something about it.
IMPORTANT: My birthday is coming up, this Sunday is the day. Anniversary of me coming out of my mothers womb in the middle of the night. Through my mother to Mother Earth. I love having a birthday, I think you get it 😀 And I want to share my excitement with you by giving you discount on all of my products in my etsy shop. It’s 22% off. Why 22? Because 3 Ptice started when I was 22. And I had no idea back then, what going to the business will mean to me. I had no idea how much joy and how much tears is going to be there. I didn’t have support from my family back then (they were disappointed and worried, because I left the university). It was often really freaking hard. But here I am, almost 5 years later, knowing that if I could go back in time, I would do it all over again. Because it wasn’t just business. It’s personal and spiritual growth, it’s the real life education, it is meeting the most amazing people, it’s is living a BIG LIFE.
So, 22% off you have if you use a code 22PERCENTOFF (how creative :P). It’s message to naive and enthusiastic 22 years old that still lives in me that yes, you are supported, by this big loving Mother Nature that will always give you exactly what you need for your growth and it will bring you the most amazing people to co-create this new world with. The world in which we can do what we love and get paid for it and live a life full of quality.
And have the most amazing weekend! I love you and I am super grateful for all of you who ever bought something from me. You made real impact on a real person with buying something that you found beautiful. Thank you for getting what you want!