Do you ever get this feeling? The worry that you should be doing something else?
I do. It’s not like I’m not happy with what I’m doing for living. I love making eco friendly accessories and writing this blog.
It’s just that sometimes I feel this way throughout the day with daily tasks and things I want to do.
For instance: I write the blog and I get this little sneaky thought in my brain: “Anita, you haven’t stretch your spine today yet…” And then it goes to “And don’t you think it would be better if you took time for reading a book. Or download that app and learn how to sing? You want to learn Italian, but you haven’t been listening to lessons since October… Oh, and you should wash the dishes. And maybe you should go to bed before 10 p.m. today. And take a bath first… Oh, you think about painting your nails for more than a month now, why don’t you?” And so on and on and on. You should relax, you should work harder, you should meditate, you should should should should.
Actually, I started to feel this way now just thinking about it. I felt this way for a few days in the last week. That’s when I decided I have to dig deeper into this.
Of course, I told google “I should be doing something else.” And I found out I’m not the only one, who feels this way. Thanks god. That was a relief.
I read some posts and checked in my body what feels true to me, why I feel this way.
And here’s what I figured out.
The reason for this feeling comes out of belief, that I have only one life and I have to make the best out of it. Okay, I kinda believe in reincarnation, so maybe that’s not my only life, but heck, I don’t remember other lives I lived, so it feels like the only one.
So, I often ask myself, what’s the best thing I could be doing right now to make this life worth living. And that’s a good question, if there comes only one answer at the time. But what about 10 answers at the time?
That’s a sign to slow down. Close your eyes and tune into your body.
How do you feel?
Hectic. Under pressure. I want to cry. I need a hug.
Hugging myself. Turning on my inner best friend.
Anita, you have done a lot today. You have done enough. You did a great job.
Cheering on myself.
It’s okay, if you don’t write just everything you figured out about this topic in this post. It’s okay. You can leave something for some other day. Now, go wash the dishes, wash yourself and go to bed with a book.
Yep that’s exactly what I’m gonna do. See, if you take a few minutes to tune into yourself, you figure out what’s the best thing to do right now. (:
Oh, here’s today sunset. It was so beautiful. I almost cried. Made me think for a moment, that this is what I’m here for, to be a witness to Beauty.
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